Standing over Alex’s dead lifeless body was not the best way to start the New Year’s. The realisation that I have taken his life sunk in and I left a whole lot of remorse. But Du’aine showed no emotion. His face was like a man who has done such a thing before and was used to it, but not me a church going boy who know knew the 10 commandments like porn sites. I could not believe how it all went so wrong within a couple of hours. Du’aine starting talking but I could not understand word being said, it was like I was on another planet and my body was just passing through earth. ”Jimmy, what wrong with you, he told you you wasn’t a man kill but you showed him”. “Jimmy”. What I replied, my eyes staring straight into eye’s beautiful blue eyes which I never noticed before until tonight, his bloody dripping from right hand that held the knife. “Jesus Christ, what did you make me do” Turing towards Du’aine. “You wanted to be a part of gang that is how you get into it. Now you one of us”. That Phrase “one of us” ran through my mind I replayed it several times. In my fading mind I could feel I was going insane. I thought is this what being in a gang is all about I just wanted to be loved. Now two life’s is lost all in a blink of an eye. “I don’t want to be in any gang”. “Well what done is done, you can’t not raise him from the dead, you’re not Jesus” as he blowed his smoke in the air and spat on the floor.” You must be ready to face he consequence” as he spoke in his deep alfa male voice heading towards his stolen black BMW.